Books · Health · Pregnancy after loss

Good vibes

I’ve finished reading The Positive Birth Book this week by Milli Hill. I’ve found it very useful in getting to know what I can ask for during labour and birth, and how to plan for different scenarios. I feel much better prepared now and am learning to understand that whatever happens, it’s not what but… Continue reading Good vibes

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Checks and keeping measured

I had a small bleed last week, which freaked me out a bit. This was at the same time as having a hacking cough that kept me awake all night and ended up with me coughing up blood as well as having a four-year-old with gastroenteritis. Yeah!  I rang the maternity unit and they asked… Continue reading Checks and keeping measured

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Considering birth

I had a second obstetrician appointment recently to decide whether to try for a VBAC or have another c-section. I decided that I would go for a vaginal birth unless I go very overdue as I’m really not keen to be induced. I had a very prolonged first labour that never really got going. I… Continue reading Considering birth

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Banging your head against a brick wall (or pavement)

First off, it’s nice to start with my positive news. I had my 28-week midwife appointment this week, which went well. Everything was good with the baby and me, and I left feeling not too anxious. I’ve been using the Kicks Count app to monitor the baby’s movements, which is a great resource to help… Continue reading Banging your head against a brick wall (or pavement)

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Half way there

I had my 20-week scan this week and was pretty nervous. Everything was ok though and we wanted to find out the sex. So the sonographer paused and hovered over my tummy before shouting ‘scrotum and penis!’ to which I replied ‘is it a boy?’ ‘No…’ he said dryly, ‘of course it’s a boy’. I… Continue reading Half way there

Christmas · Health · Miscarriage · Pregnancy after loss

Out the other side

Out the other side is very much how I feel heading into the New Year. Being pregnant at Christmas made me feel a huge pressure to feel happy and upbeat when sometimes I felt scared and uncertain. Because everything shuts down – it also made me feel vulnerable in case anything happened. Like being adrift… Continue reading Out the other side

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Heading into Christmas

So I had my dating scan this week and everything looked as it should, which was good news. I get so jittery beforehand and have to close my eyes and be told all is ok before I can open them. I explained to the sonographer about the clinical trial I was part of. I often… Continue reading Heading into Christmas